I think once upon a time I took it to my head to become a goddamn writer. And that very day would have to go popping black all over the history.
Gosh ! I think I was pretty cool and calm about this whole affair unless or until I was told of writing samples , references , this that work. I completely smile to myself , it is no doubt a blessing to be practicing free flow of ideas than to go seeking approval . I am completely cut into two , I might be missing out on something by not trying so . May be , but at least this shall as well mean my point , keeping originality , flow..blah , blah , blah.
Seriously , Ha Ha Ha , am going back to my Grisham today . No ghost of writing can keep me atleast for today.
Naturally , once in life time , one doesn’t understand where the things are longing to be . Here , I find that equations are equally relevant if the focus is drawn on the ulterior and interiors of things .
Everyday one learns , relearns & tries to keep learning in focus . This might mean a lot to understand and get hold of the things which is unique and has its great assets , that means having in-depth of things , that doesn’t come easy and doesn’t come that tough too .
One just has to resolve the ulterior of the things , just need to see a degree sentinel through thus.
Now , what a crazy schedule means , do ask me. Somehow , by now it is so much a habit to keep working till delivered . It is pretty much in system now. I feel like , ” Great ! , more patient I am , more productive but still I would not love too much rushing for that might mean a bit quality , here and there . But of late , I am also learning to take short breaks in between , like yesterday , huge reading gait.
So , could still walk fast but not without my break , Me time . Now I understand , the corporate concept : Work Hard , Party Harder , I mean short breaks.
At times , it happens somewhere down the lane , some thing strikes in the dark corners . Then this means a blank dot leading nowhere , leading nothingness .
May be a short break is all required , may be , a cut off from everything required.
May be bleak darkness is all the chosen preference.
Sometimes are just static . A gap silently takes over . Now the question is why on Earth I am feeling this way . A certain quietness is seeping in . Very quiet and roaring screams everywhere . Everything settled , yet everything brimming with disparity .
Am not sure , which way I have reached but paths were correct , I am sure this must be momentarily or if this is going to be permanent ? Let me close my eyes and drift off . I might survive , may be.
Naturally , the subject shall always catch attention of sensitive minds . Somehow , I have always dreamt of , thought in general about what is so special about couples . Playing with the word , ” Going family way ” , I think if couples are genuinely compatible , this is the most beautiful & blissful bind that enjoins them together . In the long association , if you are involved with someone by heart , you might like to share the constant rapport and make impressions known in the comfort zones and nothing is much concrete if the trust does prevail .
And nothing should matter . Believe me , I am not thinking what I am saying but I am thinking exactly what I am saying.